#ThursdayThoughts: A Discourse on Consumerism

Shopping is fun, it’s so much fun. One of my favorite pastimes is to go to the mall on the weekends and window shop. I’m too impatient to try things on, so I’ll look at everything in person and mull on it for a few weeks and, if the want is still there, purchase it online. That way I can look forward to the package arriving, my very own mini Christmas that takes place every few weeks. My bank account is my own, so no one can see the charges I’m putting on it, and I usually get home before my boyfriend does so I have time to unpack my gifts and throw out the evidence. It’s all a fun game to me, or it was.

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Plan With Me – September: Astrology Forecast, Tarotscope, and Goals & Intentions

August was not the gentle month I was hoping for. I struggled with a lot of anxiety for the majority of the month, something I haven’t had to deal with so consistently in so long, and then my dog passed away. August really decided to test me, huh! Reflecting on it now, I can see that during these hardships I leaned on my family and friends for support. I was very open and vulnerable with my anxiety and started a support group chat with others that confided in me their similar struggles. It was terrifying to be so vulnerable but I found a supportive community of people because of it. When Jake passed away, I immediately sheltered myself in my family’s love and we got each other through the first few days without him. This month just proved to me how crucial family and friends are during times of need.

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in loving memory / for my Jake.

A few days ago, I lost my sweet dog Jake. He was 17. We had him for his entire life, me at the age of 9, my sister 13, both of us excited for this tiny little puppy that would fit into our hands. We had no clue, then, the impact that tiny puppy would have on our lives. At 26 now, I don’t remember a life without him in it.

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My Feel Good Diary

Happy Sunday, loves! A few weeks ago my family and I participated in the CHOC Walk and, as it always does, it reminded me of what’s important in life: family. I’ve shared with you all my struggles with anxiety and all of it got me thinking “what makes me feel good?”. I do a lot throughout my day to be my best self, and a lot of these things I don’t even really think about. I thought, what better way to highlight these daily rituals than to give Refinery29’s Feel Good Diaries a shot of my own? I’m obsessed with their Money Diaries (maybe I’ll do my own here one day…) but also love to read their Feel Good Diaries to see how other women manage their wellness routines. The point is to track a week’s worth of meals, supplements, subscriptions, anything that you would consider part of your wellness routine. Read on for mine!

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What’s Inside My Anxiety Toolkit

I’m not going to skirt around it, I have been struggling recently. On the heels of being very busy and productive as I had planned to be in August, I found myself reeling from a major anxiety attack. It kept me up for most of the night, I was tossing and turning, shivering and crying. My mind was racing with all the things I had to do both at work and at home and how I just wanted a break from it all. I was completely unable to focus on what I had going on that week and instead was fixated on my entire future. As if that wasn’t enough to worry about, I kept glancing at the clock and counting down the hours of sleep I would have left until it was time to get up and get ready for work. When I finally woke up the next morning, my sleep cycle app told me my sleep quality was at its all-time lowest…60%. I woke up feeling exhausted, irritable, and entirely depressed. This is what my anxiety looks like.

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