Another year has come and gone! It feels like 2019 went by so quickly but when I look back, so so much has happened. It’s been a really important year for me in terms of growth. And what better way to spend the last day of the year, and even the decade, than looking back on all the blessings and lessons 2019 has brought me.
Big Moments From 2019
⒈ A Mindful Moment was born. For a while I had been toying with the idea of starting a blog because I love writing, but I didn’t know what starting one would actually look like. I was afraid of the responsibility that came with it, afraid that my hobby would start to feel more like a job (and I already have one of those…). After lots of encouragement from close friends and envisioning what I wanted my blog to be, it finally took its first breath in May. It’s been a fun and creatively challenging journey ever since!
⒉ Started a podcast with my best friend. Balanced Broads started pretty much how A Mindful Moment started, lots of discussions and encouragement and doubts and learning and trusting. It’s been such a fun experience and I have learned so much since our first episode was released in October.
⒊ Sweetener World Tour. Yes this definitely made the list. I went to Ariana Grande’s LA show back in May with my best friend and my sister and it was the most perfect night. I’m currently listening to her live album right now (titled: k bye for now) and relieving how much fun we had screaming the lyrics and dancing the entire night away.
⒋ Transferred into Marketing/Business Development. My big career move of the year! It has been such a learning experience and has given me invaluable insight into this area of work that has always interested me. I’ve also gained the nicest (and craziest) team ever, who are not just coworkers but friends. This year was definitely a year for career growth.
⒌ Finally tackled my anxiety. I’ve detailed my struggles with anxiety and depression in other posts (see: here, here, and here for a glimpse) but to sum, I’ve had anxiety for as long as I can remember but it’s been manageable for the most part, until the last half of this year. It got so bad where I was having anxiety every single day, for no reason at all. I quickly fell into a depression because I couldn’t endure life like that. I started taking Zoloft and it’s completely turned my life around. I’m so so thankful I took that much-needed step.
Lessons I Learned in 2019
△ You won’t always get the closure or explanation that you think you deserve.
△ Sometimes you have to accept something for what it is and move on.
△ Not everything deserves your reaction.
△ Say yes when you want to say yes and say no when you want to say no.
△ Put yourself first, always.
Posts You Loved in 2019
Things I Want To Focus On in 2020
Financial security. Meditation. Learn to be more sustainable. Don’t buy things I don’t need. Eating healthier. Cooking more. Working out regularly. Be more productive. See my friends more. Say no. Say yes to new things.
2019, thank you. You’ve taught me so much, more than I asked you to honestly. You’ve brought me so many blessings, lessons, hardships, challenges, fun and laughs. I can look back at 2019 with lots of love and gratitude, knowing that everything this year has taught me was in preparation for the good things that are waiting for me in 2020. The future is fucking bright, and even better, it’s mine to mold as I please.